That's hot.

Shifted!

2005-11-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I have shifted

no tag board there, only commenting system. gonna miss tag board.

Thanks a lot...

2005-11-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

To round off a slightly shitty day (which brightened up a little later), I got off the bus at about 11 plus to find the poster for Saw staring at me from Clear Channel's bus stop ad.

!!!!!

Since when is it okay to put disturbing posters like that like at face level!?!!!?!??!?!!?!? Arghghhghhhghghh now everytime I come home late i'll be confronting that stupid poster aghghgh.

Murphy's Law!!!!!

2005-11-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

Omg!

The biggest and most important presentation in my life tomorrow... 6 representatives from 3M (and among them the Group Manager and Regional Manager)... My group mates think highly of me enough to send me and the great Larry to do the campaign presentation...

AND I HAVE A HUGE PIMPLE ON MY NOSE!!!

WTF?!!!!!!!!

Why why why?!!! I never break out before exams/presentations etc and now I break out?!! Why why why??!! How can you take someone seriously when she has a bloody pimple on her nose?!! aghghghhghghgh hahxa gfhsehf fhnlsdflsd fhsd!!!!

I seriously hope I can pull it off tomorrow... I don't want to let anyone down...

Then it's the exams...

So Melodramatic!

2005-11-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

Acckkkk... Korean tv shows are so drama!!! What with all the 'Our love will never die cause it's just began' and the girl dies in the guy's arms on the beach as he asks 'will you wait for me?'.

The romantic side of me goes 'Awwww so sad....' and cries buckets. The pragmatic/cynical side of me goes 'What the heck are they doing at the beach at dawn in the middle of winter?!' And then the romantic side of me goes 'But it's soooo beautiful! Won't you love it if it happens to you?' And then pragmatic side says 'Not if I had to die!'

But seriously. It's beautiful. How nice to have a guy love you so much he'd drag a piano to the same beach you died at and play a song for you?

Okay, I'll stop being sarcastic. I truly thought the closing scene from Stairway to Heaven was heartbreaking.

At Orchard yesterday

2005-11-09T09:27:00.000+08:00

I realised they changed the seats. I'm not sure. Maybe it was different all the while.

___

Sometimes I feel we shouldn't question what we have too much. What for? It's a waste of time.

___

Maybe we can look at it in many different ways. That's why you shouldn't always make excuses.

___

I learnt a lot about myself.

La! (:

2005-11-06T13:40:00.000+08:00

Jh , Mel , Chris

Voyeurism

2005-11-06T12:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I was on the train. I stood near the doors with my back against the glass partition.

There was this couple standing in front of me, she was looking at him intently. He was not meeting her eyes. She stared at him for the longest time.

It was like watching a movie or reading a novel. 'She searched his face for traces of remorse, but he refused to meet her eyes' ... or something cheesy like that.

She spoke.

I didn't hear what she said, cause I had my headphones on. It would be very rude to evasdrop too. In fact, I was getting really uncomfortable standing there - because it felt like I was interupting a really private moment.

But like I said, it was really like watching a scenario which you are really familiar with, just that this time you're watching as a third person perspective rather than being in the moment itself. And you cannot take your eyes off it.

He didn't reply and still refused to meet her eyes. He was looking everywhere else but at her. She was still looking at him; her face was impassive, but her eyes were almost - for lack of a better word - pleading. It just seemed like they were alone, like the rest of the people in the train didn't exist but them.

It went on like that for a good 5 minutes. All the while she was staring at him, and he was looking out of the window.

At last, he spoke. Earnestly. Honestly. His head hung low.

As he spoke, she was slowly tearing. Like, she has already expected to hear what he was going to say, but still it still hurt to hear it out loud. For some reason, I really emphatised with her. Because she looked really hurt and well... I'm guessing this, but she looked really disappointed with him as well.

He looked at her at last. She was wiping her tears.

Then he held her hands, and they walked out at the next station.

Don't you just love happy endings? (:

Stream of nothing

2005-10-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

Just realised that the holidays are coming soon. Like really soon!

Hm, I got so much to talk about, but so little to type. Surely it doesn't make sense... Have been blogging a bit more at the other blog I guess.

Okay, let's get my thoughts together.

Hols are coming, I've decided not to do internship (though the one at Bintan Resorts sound really nice, but I think I've enough of SPSS for a while). Think I'm gonna spend my hols bumming, maybe go take driving, go out, shop, do stuff to my room, go to libraries. But I think I'll still be damn bored all the time. Yuck, I hate having nothing to do, but I don't wanna work also since I worked so much during term time.

But argghhhh!! I need money, so I need to do some work as well! But like what! I can't teach for nuts, so there goes tuition. Ack... I am wondering if there are any fun work I can do... I don't know. Like walking dogs or something. Actually walking dogs sound really fun! Can look really nice doing it also, like this!

Yes! Complete with the flowers and random hot guy and absolutely gorgeous dogs. Hahahaha.

***

Anyhoo. Have been listening to James Blunt 'You're Beautiful' on repeat lately. It got me to thinking... won't it be a wonderful song for 'Love Actually'? Especially the Kiera Knightley story? The one where she marries this guy, and the husband's best friend who always seem to really dislike her is actually in love with her.

And during Christmas, he tells her 'Without hope or agenda - Just because it's Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth - To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you -...'

Can you hear James Blunt in the background singing 'I saw your face / In a crowded place / And I don't know what to do / Cause I'll never be with you'

Really, you have to switch on the sound track and watch the movie.

I cried buckets during that scene! I thought it was the most romantic thing ever...

Never again

2005-10-24T10:24:00.000+08:00

It was the worst feeling in the world, I probably never wanna do it again. But I still love you girls! :D

(Taken from Mel's blog)

Full story at Mel's blog. Thank babe, you're a gem (: Desmond and friends are really nice too.

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Edit - I have weird bruises on my hip!

Edit2 - and my arm!

Edit 3 - and my feet! wtf hahaha...

Time to stop playing! Edit

2005-10-16T09:16:00.000+08:00

Have like 157 stuff due next week but I haven't started on anything cause I was too busy playingggggggggggggg.

Momo with Mel and themanwhore (=p) was a mess! I didn't know what happened half the night. Hahahaha. It was the waterfall I think. Anyhoo,

crazychinamancab - one for one are only for housepours (thank god zouk opening next friday!) - mad in washroom with mel - liveband area to drink - waterfall! - i didn't puke! - can't remember can't remember can't remember - apparently we are on nightlife.sg (i look horrible!!!) - drinking again? - guessing game - mel's scissors! - 3.14! - Mad outside the club - camera whoring - i cannot lie on the rugs :/ - we took videos but mel can't remember! haha - dancing - horrible crowd - stoning at central square apartments - supper at lps - laughing too much!

Think only Mel and Chris will know what I'm talking about
^ Think this above photo shows why I said what I said about assets at Momo. =p

anyway, also went out with chrischen to get qihan's belated bday present at marina. we had carl's jr!

It's huge, I finished one side and I was so full already!

And oh I got new make up!!! Yay! Blush from MakeupStore and a Clinique lip gloss! Makeup makes me happy... although they almost never get used cause I'm too lazy to.

Went to Esplanade cause he wanted to look for places to bring his gf. Haha. Saw an elephant clinging on a pole

So cute!

I am not a ninja!!! Chrischen is disgusting. Haha.

Btw Esplanade is so pretty now...

i am supergirl! haha, i went to 9 am class on friday after sleeping for 3 hours, and i managed to pay attention (kind of).

Heehee. i love camp meetings. it's always ends up in a laughing mess of dragons and princess and pigeons and what nots. I love working with Darren and Mel, they have so much ideas. Daryl is a bit stiff. DH is really nice. Flintstones was really funny! I am speaking up a little bit more, I think. Maybe because I find one of the girls a bit annoying. *shrug. Anyway, why isn't he involved in camp this year... :/ haha. Sometimes, even hearing his name is ... I don't know. It reminds me of ... that smile at Sentosa.. at the beach.

Rhyss dragged us to go eat KFC. Haha.

I just finished Fast Food Nation. I'm a little wary of fastfood now. Haha.

Was out with the girls at night.

Obviously me pretending to be busy and show that i'm good in the kitchen as well!

PS and I!

I'm not gonna post photos of me and SL, cause I promised, but msn's fair game ya? Hahahahaha.

Whole truckload of meetings and assignments next week sigh.

Should I go for internship in december or go for a vacay? Tradeoffs... I don't know. I wanna go HongKong to shop but it'll all be winter clothes. Or a beach location? Lala. Don't knowwwww.

Random embarassing Christine fact (1)

2005-10-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

I love singing along to 'The Way' by Fastball, especially in a car, or when travelling (not on public transport obviously! Though, I've slipped once or twice. Oops :D). Seriously! It's fun, you should try it. =D

I had this picture on my laptop, I think I downloaded it last year, when MSN NBC (this one's funny, teehee =D) had this photo of the year competition, and this is one of the entries. (It did not win, but looking at it makes me happy! =D) I thought it was so apt for the caption, so I just slotted it in to make a desktop wallpaper or something =D)

*****

They made up their minds and they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going without ever knowing the way?

They drank up the wine and they got to talking
They now had more important things to say
And when the car broke down they started walking
Where were they going without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And it's always summer they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home but they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happier there today, today

The children woke up and they couldn't find 'em
They left before the sun came up that day
They just drove off and left it all behind 'em
(Leavin' it all behind)
But where were they going without ever knowing the way?

Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And it's always summer they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home but they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happier there today, today

Anyone could see the road that they walk on is paved in gold
And it's always summer they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home but they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happier there today, today
*****

I feel like dancing!!!!

2005-10-12T11:53:00.000+08:00

21st21st21st!!! Zouk is reopening!

Man it's a hot one
Like seven inches from the midday sun
I hear you whisper and the words melt everyone
But you stay so cool
My munequita, my Spanish Harlem Mona Lisa
Your my reason for reason
The step in my groove
And if you say this life ain't good enough
I would give my world to lift you up
I could change my life to better suit your mood
Cause you're so smooth
And just like the ocean under the moon
Well that's the same emotion that I get from you
You got the kind of lovin that can be so smooth
Gimme your heart, make it real
Or else forget about it
I'll tell you one thing
If you would leave it would be a crying shame
In every breath and every word
I hear your name calling me out
Out from the barrio, you hear my rhythm from your radio
You feel the turning of the world so soft and slow
Turning you round and round

You frustrate me!!!!!!!!

2005-10-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

Omg those students in my computing class are soooo annoying!

We were talking about this hypothetical scenario where

This kid wrote a computer software for his uncle to use in his shop, and declines any payment for the use of the software. The uncle then passes this program to the rest of his friends who are in the industry. So what should the kid do? Is the uncle right or wrong?

So this girl said, 'it's the stupidity of the kid, who asked him not to tell the uncle that he cannot spread the software!'

Erm, normally I don't say anything in class (too busy stoning) but erm... I was kind of itching to say something. If anything, I took business law before (I got A!) and you can totally argue so much about this issue.

Then she says something like, 'there is nothing this kid can do about it. It's his stupidity'

I cannot take it. For the first time in my life in NUS, I raised my hand to say something. (At Yanmei's prompting hahaha)

Me - 'Erm, actually, no. Copyright laws protect the kid'

Argumentative guy and annoying girl immediately have things to say!

Woah! I didn't expect such backlash... (Especially in computing class... I mean, I'm a business student, don't know anything about programming. But I know my business law...)

Argumentative Guy - 'But he cannot prove that he wrote the program'

Me - 'Well he cannot, but it doesn't change the fact that he wrote the program, and that he is the author of the program'

Argumentative Guy - 'But how does he prove it? How does he register his copyright? He cannot even prove that he wrote the program, the uncle can say he wrote it'

*don't you just hate people who argue for the sake of arguing?

Me - 'You don't have to register a copyright, it's automatic. You register patents and trademarks, but you don't have to register for a copyright. You automatically have copyright over your software.'

Annoying Girl - 'But he gave it to his uncle and never say anything, so his uncle can do anything with it. He can give it to his friends'

Me - ???!!!! What the hell are they talking about?!!

Me - 'True, but we are talking about the rights of the kid. The fact doesn't change that he holds the copyright of the software! Unless he sold or gave copyright to the uncle, which he didn't'

Argumentative Guy - 'But how does he prove it? He cannot prove it!'

Me - ?!!!!?!?!??!! I'm damn confused.

Me - 'Okay, he cannot, but does this change the fact that he holds the copyright to the program and that he can say what he wants to do with it? It's like, you write an article for a trade journal, a student quotes your article in his term paper, if he doesn't reference it back to your article in his bibilography, it's considered plagarism!'

Argumentative Guy - 'You cannot compare this with a article! Software got software laws!'

Me - 'Is it? I don't think so! He holds the rights to the program and he is protected. So the uncle, whether he knows it or not, shouldn't have sent out copies to his friends without the permission of the kid!'

Argumentative Guy - 'No, you cannot compare it to plagarism...'

Me - 'It is akin to plagarism'

Annoying Girl - 'But since the kid never said anything about it, the uncle can give the program to his friends. And also the uncle don't know it's wrong, so he gave his friends, he don't know it's illegal! So how to say he's wrong? And also nobody knows it's wrong'

Me - ..... *fume

Me - 'So you're saying if he doesn't know the laws, he's not wrong? So let's say, if you breathe, and nobody saw you breathe, does this mean you didn't breathe? The fact lies that, he did something wrong, whether he knows it or not, it's doesn't change the fact that it's wrong' (I wanted to say 'fart', but it'll be rude...)

Fran&YF - 'Wah that's such an arts reference'

Me - I know! It's so 'If there is a chair in the room, but there nobody saw it, does the chair exist?' hehehe

Annoying Girl - 'But nobody knew that he did it, and it's only between friends, so cannot blame him also'

Then even Caleb cannot take it. HAhahaha.

Caleb - 'If I kill someone, and nobody saw it, does it mean I didn't kill anyone? It doesn't change the fact that it's wrong!'

Me - *stifle laughter

Hahahahahaha.

Annoying girl - 'But he never sold it, and the kid already gave the program to him'

Me - 'I'm not saying he should sue his uncle or what, I'm just saying, the kid has his rights, and whether the uncle as good or bad intentions, he still did something wrong'

Argumentative Guy - 'It's only morally wrong...'

Me - '... Uh... whatever, I'm not even bring up why it is called copyright laws anymore.'

The tutor agreed with us. Hahahahaha =D=D=D

I love arguing when I'm obviously right. =P Haha... When I know I'm wrong, I usually don't argue back... that's why I really hate it when people argue for the sake of arguing.

Whee! I've probably fulfilled my class participation points for the rest of the semesterrrrrrrrrrrrr yayyyy =D=D

About me

2005-10-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

I am her, an exercise in ironies. I am enamored by music and words. She does not believe in words anymore. He tells me of my infectious smile. She tells me of my iciness. They tell me of my unpredictability. I feel, even more than I want to. I am missed, I am not missed. I am resilient, I am fragile. If there were no tears she will still cry, if there were no light she will still hope. I am a romantic, she's a pisces. Self conscious, very so.

'Tell me what do I need, when words lose their meaning'

Random picture I picked out. I like how content I looked (: I think you can only look truly happy when you are happy on the inside as well.

Tonight is

2005-10-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

difficult.

I'm suddenly really tired...

Just woke up, I totally fell asleep after camp meeting at Munchie Monkeys. Had to cab home because I was really that tired...

I honestly hope the kids will enjoy the camp... I like working with kids, but I always never knew how to relate to 13 year olds... I don't know what they are thinking, I don't know what they like...

Was talking to WS online... I asked something a bit uncharacteristic of me. Even I was a little thrown off when I saw what I wrote. Something along the lines of 'Why am I working so hard?' And then - 'Work so hard for? I just wanna be a tai tai'

!!!!!

I never ever said I want to be a tai tai!

Would probably be bored to tears, am just not the tai tai type la. Socialite maybe. Hahahahaha.

I don't really understand myself now. It's like my mind is spinning in a different direction every moment. Damn, I thought the self identity issues are supposed to be ironed out when I was in my teens?!!

I really don't understand myself. I don't know what I'm thinking. I don't know what I want. Do I choose to just abandon everything I've believed in and just do what I want because it's fun? Or do continue to do what I think is right and ultimately I will thank myself for?

Hate it when I'm rational but irrational. Pragmatic but idealistic.

Asked me 'Why am I always so ice cold? Why am I always so unapproachable?'

How would I know.

You don't know me, don't judge me.

Brewerkz!

2005-10-10T09:41:00.000+08:00

Was there last night with Lucas, Mike, Yanmei, Kok, Yif, Sandra and Aaron.

They (i.e Brewerkz) have humongous burgers!!!

Much bigger than Carl's Jr (I wanna go there! edit: okay i'm looking at their menu online and i'm starving!!! i wanna gooooooo!!!!!) and ... no seriously it's huge! Words can't describe. You must see...

Freak!!!
See!!!
It's HUGE!

Lucas and Aaron had that (King's Brew) and half of it was left untouched. Heh.

I shared a Full rack of BBQ Ribs with Mike... It looks quite unimpressive here, but that's cause it's 3 stacks of ribs stacked together!

But .. it's just alright... mediocare I guess, maybe I didn't have much appetite after Yanmei told me her horror story regarding ribs. Heh.

I didn't have beer or any kind of alcohol! (Although Brewerks are known for bewing their own beer or something like that) I'm such a good girl... (I hate beer anyway) The drink in the picture is apple juice... serious!

Brewerks! The light thingy on the floor... Quite nice...

And a picture of us girls... I didn't include the picture with the guys, cause I look awful in it! Hee! (Erm, not that this is very nice, but this is nicer than that)

Aaron is a scary driver! Haha... I think we got horned twice! It was quite funny how we travelled around the SMU campus area looking for Pool Junction/Pool Fusion looking for U turns and stuff. Hahaha. And Yifang's bimbo moments are quite funny too. Hehe.

Woah

2005-10-09T15:22:00.000+08:00

I know how it feels like. The lurch. The uncomfortable feeling.

Erm, like okay, I'm not surprised but... oh, there is still that weird moment of strangeness. Like you're floating outside your body seeing yourself react. I'm not surprised, really. I think nothing much surprises me anymore. I don't know. I'm not sure how to put it in words. This is not the first time I'm at a loss for words, but it definitely is the first time I'm honestly lost in terms of not knowing what to feel. Genuinely...

This is a new feeling...

What a strange sensation.

But if you don't know what to feel... then why bother to figure out what to feel? Maybe it shows that it doesn't bother you... if it doesn't then why should you feel that you need to react? Or maybe it's a delayed reaction, if so, let it bother you when it comes...

I know... it's very much like... when you tell someone something, then the person goes 'Oh'. And you're surprised why she only said 'Oh', and she says 'I don't really know what else to say'. And you know it's on her mind, but you also know that when something else more important comes along to occupy her mind, what you told her will be forgotten. Something like that.

***

Brewerkz tonight, I hope it's good =)

So little time, so much to do (edited cause I was bored)

2005-10-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

Not really in the Arkana sense, but more literal.

Promo/Product/MarketResearch is sucking the life out of me! Hmpf SPSS...

I am not an expert in SPSS, contrary to popular belief. I am only good at running tests...

But! 2 hypothesis and I can crap about it for 8 minutes for the presentation! I'm proud of myself! Hehehehe. And I'm proud of Yonghui and Larry for their presentation skills too... Yh did really well in the managerial implications part, and Larry is so convincing! Chuanhui did such a fantastic job on the powerpoint slides as well! I loved the colours and the design! Jiaying too, it was her who was running tests with me on SPSS and keeping me sane on the whole! haha... and erm, Ken as well.

Also, 'hanging out' with the whole group of them (wh, zw, chuan, yonghui, val, jiaying, edmund, grace) was fun. Like he said, we haven't had such a huge group of us for such a long time. and we haven't informally congregated in the canteen for such a long time. haha. Grace always tells me she hasn't seen me for such a long time... haha... which leads me to really wonder if i had deviated so far from the bizad group...

***

But it's good to be busy. These days my life is only filled with 3M, Scotch-Brite, Cereal, Nestle, Bookbinders, SMS and Youth, East Coast Park, Sumex (and what on earth that is) and other what not. Maybe the occasional other stuff (like I really need to go clubbing, and I haven't seen a movie for god knows how long, and I need a new wardrobe and i need to dye my hair and get a hair cut haha)

***

Did you guys know that French laptops (or keyboards in general) are different? As in, they are not the QWERTY types! I didn't know that, until I was using Olivier's laptop to take notes and realised after a while that I was typing rubbish (and he was laughing at me!!! :/)

This is how it looks like (from this website)

Apparently German keyboards are different too! Do I have a German classmate do I have a German classmate?? *thinks*
Oh... I can look at Nick's!!

***

Thanks to Mel suggesting we eat tang yuan on thursday, now I have a craving for tang yuan all the time. Hahaha...

The woman gave me 7 tang yuans instead of 6... and the truly ironic thing is - the last one that I ate was actually peanut tangyuan...

:/

It was so delish though... I had to stop eating and spit it out. But it's so delish!! I haven't eaten peanut tang yuan in my entire life... :/

I think she mixed up Caleb's order with mine... :/

Hm... doing Sumex (Summary exercise?) and was told that it is actually a whole day exercise. I didn't know that! (Maybe because during the whole of the meeting I was half asleep, due to having only 4 hours of sleep the night before) But it sounds fun, and I've never really planned a whole day event (not really) since FOC and that was only campus hunt, pool games and Sentosa. I'm sure Darren Mel Daryl and I will do well... hopefully! =D=D=D I'm very excited about it!

Daniel is Camp Master! Caleb and WX are program ICs! Hahahahaha. Why are all my friends so high flyyyyyingggggg. =P =P

***

It's hard being a bitch :(
I had to be angry and pissed off the whole night, while the others are having fun.
Hahaha...

But it was soooo fun! I really liked hanging out with the rest of the actors. They kept referring to me as the door bitch!! Even the camera man!!! :/ Hahaha.

I thought I would laugh when I see the dance, but I didn't! Cause I was too busy being tired. Hahaha. I felt mean though. =)
KS -
'Why is the bouncer not bouncing?'

Ha-bloody-ha.

HAhahaha :D

He didn't tell me he'd be using that line, and I nearly sputtered when I heard it. I had to keep a straight face and pretend to be unimpressed by them.

Oh oh.. it happened again! D was driving all of us home from Simei... and he dropped KS at school, so I was like 'Oh I can direct you from here'. It kind of slipped my mind that every time I tried to direct someone to my place from school I inevitably (the keyword is inevitably!) forget to tell them which exit to take... and for like the third time, we ended up at Jurong Island. :/ :/ :/

You know, you kind of figured it when you start to see huge trucks and cargo vehicles...

No use getting a license ... don't even know the way back from school... :/

Still can blog somemore!

2005-10-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

Promo is sucking the life out of me!!! Help!!!

***

This afternoon, I decided to change my handphone back to the Motorola one I got a couple of months back.

Then Ronnie texted me, I replied, but found I couldn't send the message, as message memory is full.

Full? I've already deleted all my messages from my SIM card...

Turns out, Motorola stored my outgoing messages. All 77 of them. And all of them, I realised, are addressed to one receipient. The same receipient.

Oh no.

Told myself, don't see. Don't open up, just erase, it's easy... you did that a few weeks back... it's easy...

Me, being me, couldn't.

I read each and every one of my outgoing messages. Then I deleted it.

Surprisingly, I had no feelings after reading that. Sure, there are pangs, but on the whole... I was feeling quite neutral.

*shrug.

Oh my friggin god

2005-10-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

I am 45 kg.

My body mass index is 16.1 and according to this website, anything less than 18.5 is underweight. I've always been borderline underweight, so that doesn't really bother me, but still. I've never been 45kg since... I don't know. secondary school.

Okay, according to this website, I'm not even small frame. (I'm 5'6 and 99 pd) Granted, that's for caucasian women... I think I should be about 53-55 kg for my height.

No wonder people have been telling me I look thinner.

I am going to drag my skinny ass to a buffet near me. (If you're wondering, no, I still do not have a skinny ass. It's only my shoulders that are damn skinny.)

Eeeee!!!!! Jutting shoulder bones!!! I won't show you my collar bones. You guys are not prepared for it.

This will be a good weight to gain back to.

Go eat buffet with me!! Erm, after this week though, it's kind of hell week for me this week. @#$@#%$# projects.

***

Anyway, Bioskin O2 facial is so much better than Mary Chia's facial! My skin is so so so nice after the O2 facial... love it so much, and it only came up to about 100 plus bucks, considered cheaper cause my mum's some member at Bioskin or something. My brother went with me, and I think broster might be a metrosexual a la Tay Ping Hui. Whaha. Sian, too bad we've signed on to Mary Chia, so I've to wait like a few more months before I can switch over to Bioskin.

Then I have to go destroy my skin by going tanning... now I'm super burnt, and my shoulders hurt. :/

Of chuckling, door bitches, lousy losers and medicated oil

2005-10-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I have been laughing too much these few days. My cheeks hurt.

=D

Incident 1

Mel, Weisiong, Caleb and I went to eat supper at Bt. Timah. On the way back, Weisiong and Caleb are in the front seats, Mel and I are in the back seat. We were talking about females protecting themselves against perverts, so someone brought up pepper spray. The guys in front started talking about ... I don't know. Something boring about pepper spray and laser tasers or something like that. Hahaha. Mel and I were talking in the backseat.

Me 'Can use insecticide, but it's too big to stuff in your bag'
Mel 'Ya... or insect repellant'
Me 'Yup, spray into his eyes'
Mel 'Or medicated oil'
Me 'Medicated oil?!'

Mel 'Yes!!!!!' *makes hand flicking movements like throwing oil at pervert'
Me 'Hahahahhaha... what?!!! Can you imagine telling the perv wait!! let the oil come out!'
Mel 'Hahahahahaha' (still laughing)
Me 'Hahahahahaha'(cannot stop laughing)

Literally doubled over the back seat laughing. Hahahaha :)

We laughed for a good 5 minutes =D

Incident 2

I spent my saturday and sunday in school. Can you believe it.
So much so I think we are all brain dead. I've seen Larry, Yonghui, Chuanhui, Jiaying and Ken for at least 24 hours. :/

I have no social life :/

Hahaha... so we were going home last night (yes, I left school at 12 midnight on a sunday !@#$$%) then Chuanhui said something like 'Larry long legs lousy loser'

*giggle

Then she went 'Quite sad right, you can actually be lousy being a loser'

At that, I burst out laughing... hahahahha.

And all of us (maybe except Larry) laughed all the way as we walked out to the main road to take cab. Alright, maybe only me and Chuanhui, but I couldn't help it. Haha.

Oh, the whole night, I was trying to get into role, pretending to be a bitch. Trying to snap at them, be pissed off that they keep asking me to run SPSS tests (hahahaha) and and give them the evil eye. I'm kind of up to this already!

Ok, sorry no pretty photos for you guys, =P So far I've succeeded by looking mildly pissed off. Heh.

But ... cannot... Everytime I try to do the evil eye on Larry or anybody else, I burst out laughing in like, 2 seconds. :/

Incident 3

Went cycling with Wenyee at ECP today! For 2 hours straight, I was so damn tired, thank goodness her chauffer was there to send us back to school, I don't wanna stand on the train! I could get used to this! Hahaha. (I'm not materialistic! No no no!)

I think it was the tiredness that got Wenyee and I so crappy, and pissed off at Dan being late. We were really mean to him today. Heh.

Then we're talking about giggling.

'Green shirt guy will giggle'
'What?! No ... chuckle?'
'Guffaw!'
'No one says chuckle! It's so british!'
'Guffaw ... hahahahahaha'

Okay, I know this is not a funny conversation. Not even remotely. But, we are just so tired and crappy, we spent like 5 minutes laughing at what we were talking about. Which is rubbish. I told them that back in secondary school I was doing this short acting exercise for lit class Romeo and Juliet; I was supposed to be Lady Capulet (Not Juliet :/) and I couldn't even say like 3 words without laughing. Hahaha.

I tried the evil eye thing on them... doesn't work also. :/

I can't even remember the number of times people told me that I look damn unfriendly when I don't smile. But that's because hello... no one smiles all the time right, that's just quite psychotic. Why would I like, smile when I'm alone walking around in bizad canteen?!

Anyhoo. Tried. Going to sleep.

Oh ya! Amazing how I was thinking, since Zouk has closed for renovations, I won't be clubbing that much - but I did last Wed (went to support Key in some Ford Supermodels thing with Moon and co) and this week I'm gonna sort of club! Hah! :D I'm missing my cosmopolitans!!!!!

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I'm helping my friend with filming! Gonna act as a bitch. Whahahaha. I think it's gonna be fun! I don't know how much I can reveal about it, so I'm just gonna keep it general. I'm not sure if she's already casted it, but she needs (1) cute guy (2) people who club. Erm, don't think you're gonna get paid :P But what's important, surely, is that you get to spend time with friends! Like, urm, me!

Have to practice the bitch face!

I'm aiming for something like this (Tatiana's got a gorgeous 'bitch face' and I mean this in the best way I can)

But I think the closest I came was this -

Not fierce at all!! :/

Or this?

Cannot... I'm just not fierce! :/ Hahaha.

Day in the life of a bimbo

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Don't know what's wrong with blogger... keep eating up my entries. This was meant to be last Thursdays.

If I were any other girl on the street looking at me on Thursday, I'd wanna laugh at me.

I was wearing this t-shirt

and I was in a very bimbotic mood. But too bad I wasn't with my bimbotic friends, or anyone who would do bimbotic stuff with me.

Was in tourism lecture with Wenyee and Daniel and Asram, W's friend from Brunei (sp?). TC (the lecturer) told us to discuss about tourist packages, theme tours and stuff, i.e. The Princess Diana : People's Princess tour, Gandhi Peace Trail etc etc. And we were just throwing out ideas, but most of them seemed quite standard - Castles of Europe, Movie Star houses ...

So I said 'Paris Hilton! The 'That's Hot' Tour!'

'We could like, go to the places she shops at, clubs she frequents, places she's been to on the Simple Life. And heck, we could even go to Paris with Paris and Paris (her fiance)! Hah!'

They burst out laughing. 'Ok, if TC asks, you'll have to say it!'

I was thinking, no way la. What are the odds right, he doesn't even know my name.

It really isn't too hard to envision what happened, right?

TC happened to know Asram, and asked him about his group's proposal. All of them turned to look at me.

So... how, no choice, I talked about the 'Paris Hilton That's Hot!' tour, saying our target audience was wannabe socialites, etc etc. And beside answers like, I don't know, the Israel trail etc... my answer was soooo shallow. :/

And I had to be wearing that t shirt.

:/

*****
Was reading Mel's blog, and it got me thinking.

I don't know... it seems like, as you grow older, you actually DO change. It's not to say I never believed in it, it's just more of I never thought it would actually happen. (That's confusing)

But I've been changing, maybe it's for the better, maybe it's for the worse. It really depends on how I choose to see it. I've become more reliant, but I've also become more independant in a sense. I've become more open, but at the same time, I've learn when to shut up. I've become more honest and straightfoward to people, yet I've closed off parts of myself to everyone.

I used be those kind of girls who keep everything. Every single piece of paper that might have a bit of memory. I'll keep it. I used to think that I'll never be able to throw it away, because of what it meant. I've changed, I could actually do it. Throw away everything without a second thought, without missing it either. Of course, it still sometimes lurk at the back of the mind - memories are after all something you cannot control. I would if I could. It's like that song - '.... I die everytime I find a piece of it in corners of my mind, so I washed it all away.'

But I realised - it's really very simple. If I only think in one aspect (myself) and in one direction (forward), I'll be a happier me (:

Growing to become a better person (: Of course, I still miss the old me (that sounds soooo weird. haha) the me that was 100% idealistic and uncomplicated. The old me who doesn't think a lot. The old me who has no worries. But the new me ... well, I'm striving towards that, the new me is not cynical, but rational. Still idealistic, but down to earth. Okay I better stop this talk before I sound really schizo. Haha.